Saturday, February 6, 2010

Saying 'goodbye'



It's been a very hard week for me. My 'baby' has passed along. Mimi, a.k.a. Sushi, came to me as a kitten so tiny that I held her in the palm of my hand while I feed her baby formula from a bottle. She stayed with me all the time, even sitting on the bathtub ledge while I showered. She grew into a feisty young lady that, much like me, did not like being told what to do. We had a mutual understanding, she and I: she was boss and I was O.K. with that. And the other night I came home to chaos as everyone struggled with how to tell me what had happened - horrible. I could not understand why all this had happened. surreal. no. must be a bad dream. and now only 3 days later I am still having a very difficult time coming to grips with it all. I still see her in everything - her toys are here and there, her scratch box in the middle of the room and her hair is everywhere. She had a Buddy, and Buddy is still here: wondering where she went and what is wrong. Buddy and I are coping. I am positive that everyone else around think that I am exaggerating over a silly cat, a cat that no one else much liked but myself (even Buddy wasn't sure). This immense feelings of hurt will pass - I know this, I have been through this before. Only this time she was my baby, and saying goodbye just won't do.

10 comments:

pamwares said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Mimi. I have a house full of my best friend animals and I do not look forward to the day when I won't have one of them around. I wish I told give you a hug.

Bonnie said...

Oh no... I'm so sorry about your sweet kitty Mimi. I adore cats and truly understand your loss... It's makin' me cry right too. Your sadness is a reflection of how much you cared and loved your beloved cat Mimi. She's an angel kitty now... but her memories will live in you forever... :(

LittleGemsbyKari said...

i'm so sorry to hear about your little one. My kitties are my fur babies and I can't even imagine my world without them- so silly you are not. xoxo

Maria said...

So very sorry about your cat! I am slowly approaching the same hurt as my oldest dog, Muffin, is 15+ yrs. old and is incontinent ... She's blind and deaf too :(
Muffin still LOVES to eat, so she's hanging in there ~ but I truly feel for you... Loosing a pet is very sad ♥ thinking of you ♥
Maria

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RecreationalArt said...

thank you to everyone for your sweet thoughts and your kind words. funny how these animals creep their way into our worlds and into our hearts. Buddy and I are consoling each other through this and discussing a new playmate as I feel he just needs a partner in crime ...
too hard right now, we'll see

Kirsten said...

I'm so sorry to read about your sweet Mimi....... I know how very sad it is to lose a beloved pet.... sending you a virtual < hug>. Hold on to your wonderful memories and the knowledge that your life has been so much the better for having had Mimi in it....

Shannon said...

Sorry Rosie!! The boys feel terrible too. It is not silly to feel so hurt..our animals are like our children..you have to bath them, feed them, keep them healthy, watch them grow into adults, and love them in order for them to flourish. They definitely become part of the family and losing anyone u love is painful! But we will help u get through it..we love u!!!

Quirky said...

My heart goes out to you Rose.......I love my animals and I "get" how much they can be missed when they pass on. I once had 6 and now have 3. I get misty every time I think about them.
animals are so wonderful - that unconditional love is so sweet and comforting. It's like having toddlers that never grow up!

RecreationalArt said...

going on 10 months and it still hurts. alot.